Kottayam, Kerala

Good morning church. I want to testify about the marvelous things God as my Father has done
in the midst of all my troubles and weaknesses!
Also I want to share one thing which became a turning point at the age of 14 and I kept it as a
secret for long for the past 20 years and never shared with most of the people. But I believe it’s
time to share before the church for His glory because He has given me a big breakthrough in
my spiritual and physical health and it may speak to some of you.
Sorry if I will take a little bit more time. Took permission from the pastor.
My testimony has two parts.
First part is about God’s faithfulness and His fatherly care!! Until 9th std(age 14), I was an
average student and I even recollect that I failed in one of the subjects in previous classes. My
major turning point was at the age of 14 (9th std).What was the turning point at age 14, I’ll tell in
part 2!!
So in the 9th standard, after I met the most shocking event in my life, I became the most
studious student from an average student before.
I passed my 10th and 12th with high ranks. Got into one of the premier NITs and passed with
high ranks. Got into IIT Madras for my masters and has topped the entire masters batch. Got
placed in a top Aerospace firm and twice awarded with best employee award in the company
and I’m the youngest employee to file around 13US patents in past 4 years till date which isn’t
that usual. So far I told about the achievements in my life and I thank God for all His blessings.
Now you might have perceived a very bright and rosy picture about my life. Seeing all my
achievements, you might have thought my life was a bed full of roses. But the problem with the
roses is that it has thorns which can hurt and can cut you to bleed! That comes to the part 2 of
my testimony.
If you recollect that I mentioned about the turning point at the age 14. My brother used to tease
me by telling that some coconut or brick has fallen on my head during that time to make me shift
to become very studious because I was very mischievous that time!!
But the turning point was that I got diagnosed with Type1 insulin dependent diabetes! That
really shook my life. Type 1 diabetes is the big daddy of all diabetes because my pancreas is
not able to generate insulin,it’s an autoimmune condition. That means I need to daily inject
insulin thrice or more for the rest of my life. It was a roller coaster journey from there on.
How it can be a turning point? I thought it was a shame to be known as a juvenile diabetic and I
didn’t want anyone’s sympathy right from that time. I never told any of my friends, teachers or
most of my relatives and they still don’t know and I found my own ways to live normal like the
way I do now also. I decided to fight and I was also not a believer that time.
My decision to fight started with my decision to focus on my studies. Hence all the achievements
by God’s grace. All these things led to ask myself why I’m created for, why these things are
happening to me? That led me to seek God and ultimately find Jesus at the age of 22. Still my
diabetes was there and I was praying for my healing, went to healing preachers and nothing
happened.
But God throughout kept me healthy. God has a plan.
My entire family came to the faith after I became a believer. I consider that as yet another big
miracle!
After 4 years of our family coming to faith, at my age of 26, I lost my father all of a sudden which
was another big blow. My family was totally dependent on my father who was like a shield. We
never had to worry about anything. After he was gone, the burden of the family would naturally
come upon me as the eldest son. But frankly I didn’t know what to do since there was nothing
told about taking responsibilities or I was not trained for that!!
Nobody was there to support us in those painful times because during my father’s death, we as
a family stood for our faith and buried my father in a bible based church. There is no
significance or nothing big about conducting a burial service in a bible based church cemetery,
which we did. But through that, we announced publicly that we moved out of the nominal
church. It was a bold move and I can’t even imagine doing that without the boldness from the
Lord. Our close families and relatives totally isolated us!!
We had to bear that pain of isolation from our dear ones in addition to the loss of my father. And
I remember that in all those chaos, I forgot to even cry for my father’s loss. Financially we were
ok by God’s grace.
My situation was like a baby who tries to stand initially and is definitely about to fall!! After that,I
took very bad decisions which almost destroyed my life. For the past 8 years I have been
bearing the pain of some of the bad choices I took and it’s consequences.
But when my father died, that made me fatherless and my mother a widow! And what does the
word of God say in that situation.
“A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in His holy dwelling.”
Psalm 68:5
Although my earthly father was taken away when he was most needed in my life the most,my
heavenly Father took over the place. He has been there all through my life, but I realised His
faithfulness to His word only after my earthly father was taken away. In the past 8 years, there
were times of terrible betrayal and painful situations from my own very close people and
seasons of deep pain!!
However in those painful situations,I was able to turn back to God and He has been faithful to
deliver me miraculously.
Right now I’m standing before you,as I’m speaking, in the midst of troubles, I am still diabetic
and still take injections and it has become a part of my life. I’ve been praying for the past 20
years and it is not healed yet literally . It’s like a thorn in my flesh!!
I think 2 months back I gave a testimony on the tough times I’m going through. Still the tough
times are there, may be much more worse it has become. But I can say my relationship with my
Heavenly Father has grown stronger.
As the word says about His presence,
“You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are
pleasures forevermore.”
Psalms 16:11 NKJV
I got the strength to stand here because I’m able to spend time with God daily and transfer all
my burdens to Him. There is a peace which surpasses all my understating right now in my heart.
I thank God for revealing Himself through His word to me. I thank God for Ps George and Ps
luke for supporting and guiding me with all their might to sustain me in all these difficulties.
God has given now a big breakthrough in my spiritual and physical health in the past 6 months
which is the main reason I’m testifying now.
Physically do you see any change in me? I lost almost 15kgs in 2.5 months and I’m now close to
my ideal weight. When I started seeking Him, God opened my eyes and showed me a way to
follow ketogenic diet which according to me is a miracle diet if followed.
Don’t think that I kept praying and I lost my weight!! God gave me the deep conviction to take
the path of a disciplined spiritual and physically healthy life.
I believe the main reason for this thorn in my life, is to make me disciplined and discipline never
came so easy to me because temperamentally I’m phlegmatic and by default I tend to be very
lazy. Also I started cooking healthy foods too, which is not usual for a malayalee like me who is
trained to just eat what is served on the table from my childhood!! I would say it’s a miracle.
Coming to the results in the past 2 months, I lost 15kgs just by diet, my blood sugars are now
like a non-diabetic and drastically reduced insulin intake by 70%. Even doctors got astonished
by seeing my reports. Everything is resetted to normal or rather better than a normal healthy
person at my age. I would say it’s a way of healing from the Lord and it’s still a thorn to keep me
disciplined and I didn’t receive any answers from God like Paul received that the thorn will
remain. So I will continue praying for it’s removal!! I believe God is my healer.
Yes in the midst of all these trials,I realised I need to be in fear of the Lord and trust Him.
My other option is to get bitter and live in prison of unforgiveness and rebel against God, but you
know what the is rebellion in God’s eyes,
“For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, And stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because
you have rejected the word of the LORD, He also has rejected you from being king.””
I Samuel 15:23 NKJV
I have every reason to be rebellious and I have done it before to be bitter and be rebellious for
the bad things happening in my life. I realised there is no point and it’s meaningless to do that!!
Being rebellious and showing our tantrums won’t work with God although it may work with our
earthly parents or with other people.
I realised this, and this time I chose to trust and surrender before Him even though I don’t see
any deliverance and I know God is refining me, my character!!
I came to the conviction that no matter what happens in my life, am I able to say, I’ll trust in my
Lord and seek Him with all my heart?
Like shadrach,meshach and abednego.
“If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the furnace of blazing fire; and He
will deliver us out of your hand, O king. But even if He does not, let it be known to you, O king,
that we are not going to serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up.””
DANIEL 3:17-18 NASB